Deployment

           Well today was the day! The day where Drew found out for 100% whether or not he was going overseas (deploying) And well, he is NOT! So we get to stay in Germany! We are still going to visit in the States for three weeks starting this weekend though. Hopefully starting this weekend I mean! If not then hopefully we will catch a flight on Monday. Like I was dead set on him having to deploy so when they told him he may not qualify to deploy we didn't know what was going to happen. But he told them he HAD to know by today, Monday May 10, 2010 whether or not he was going because he had to get us to the States with everything if he was. I was not stressing over him having to go or anything, if anything I was stressing about having to stay in the States for so long away from our home here in Germany! But it did bring like a sigh of relief to me hearing that he doesn't have to go, if that makes since. Drew didn't know what to think! He was bummed about not being able to go but then he was happy that he would get to be here for Andrew's first Christmas and stuff like that. I mean, we were both bummed about it in one way or another. But we are excited because when we get back from our visit to the States we are going to try and find a place off base to move to! How exciting is that?!?!?! I do not like moving at all but it will beat living on base! I mean, I really like living on base and all but it has become a drag being on the fourth floor with a baby and a dog! We are hoping to find a 3-4 bedroom free standing home, with 2 bathrooms or at least 1 1/2! And hopefully one that has a dish washer. But if not then that will be fine, its not like our's works here anyways!
           Anyways, just wanted to get on to share the exciting news! Oh yeah, and some other news... Drew and I wrote out our wills today. Saying like what we want done with our stuff if anything should ever end up happening to either of us.

Happy Mother's Day!

           Today is my first Mother's Day as a real mom! Drew and Andrew surprised me with a beautiful planted flower, well two flowers in it, and a box of Belgian Chocolates, which are YUMMY! We were able to go to church this morning also and hear the beautiful talks and song performances by the youth and the primary, which were so touching! I really enjoyed the song that the youth sung about the 12 strippling worriers and how they would not have been who they were without the influence of thier mothers! It was beautiful! And if Andrew was in the primary singing the song that they did, I would have cried my eyes out! :) It was, "Mother I Love You" After church Little Andrew and I were able to lay down and enjoy about a 2-3 hour nap, which was so amazingly nice! And now Drew is making dinner, which is one of those tasty chinese box dinner things, "Orange Chicken and Rice"

          I cannot believe that we leave in just one week! I mean I am not excited but I can't believe it is so soon! And tomorrow, Monday, Drew finds out whether or not he if he will deploy or not. It is so annoying! I mean, I had Andrew's stuff packed and re-packed it to try and make more room, now I may have to unpack just to put a few items in or I may have to unpack just to pack less this time around to make more room! Drew said that "they" said they are leaning more towards him not having to go. And if that is the case then we are moving off base ASAP! It is just kind of hard being on the fourth floor with having to carry up Andrew and groceries and the dog when he goes out. And when we look at the houses we are going to try and get a single standing house with just us living in it, 3 or 4 bedrooms, and at least 1 1/2 bathrooms, but hopefully 2 full bathrooms! :) And it would be nice to have somewhat of a yard for Spanky to play in and be... well a dog! :) But if he doesn't have to deploy then we will still go to the States for those 3 weeks to visit. Andrew and I may stay for an extra month though, but we don't know for certain what will happen.

May 5, 2010

           Its a little after 10 PM right now so I better hurry up and type in this so I can get some sleep while Andrew is still asleep.
           It all started yesterday. Not feeling 100%. Not sick, just feeling down. I cry. And when Drew asks me what is the matter, I tell him that I don't know and that I just cannot stop crying. Today it happened again. I don't really feel anything, I just cry and cannot stop. I looked up online different home remedies for post partum and from what I read it said vitamin B is a big help. I think I am going to start doing everything thing that I love. Like listening to country music all day, watch a favorite movie, eat something yummy and not feel guilty, just little stuff to help me feel better. Drew called this evening (seeing how he is working nights this week) to check up on me. I answered the phone crying. I try to avoid answering the phone at all  because I don't want people to know. Its embarrassing. I can't help it though. I am going to try and take the vitamin B and the Fish Oil Pills to see if that will help any, if not then I will go and see the doctor to see what he recommends. Its just depressing here sometimes. The sun was out more and the weather was warm. But now it seems like we have gone back in time back to the winter, and it is May! It is very cloudy and chilly out!
         

May 4, 2010

           Well not much has happened today. Andrew and I got up at about 8:30 this morning to start our day. Drew is working nights this week so he was here when we woke. The phone was ringing when I was in the living room with Andrew and I made Drew get up to answer it, mostly because I didn't want to talk to anyone. But he answered it and handed it to me! But it was Robyn and she said she was on her way over this way and wanted to know if I wanted to go to playgroup with her, it was going to be at Jessica's house. So Andrew and I got ready and went with her to it. One other lady came to playgroup, so there were just three toddlers playing together. I sat there and held Andrew and didn't do much talking, I just really don't have anything in common with anyone so nothing really to say. Anyways, I got home and told Drew to hurry up and get ready so we could go to the commisary to get some stuff for me to make for dinner tonight since we're feeding the missionaries. So we went and got stuff to make Sloppy Joes.
            Since Drew is working evenings this week he wasn't here yesterday evening when Andrew threw the biggest fit of his life, so far! He screamed for 1-2 hrs straight! He had gas and I tried rubbing his tummy but that didn't help him much. The only thing that helped was if I stood up with him and patted his butt to sort of bounce him a little. He burped some but thats about it. So and he threw that fit we were both tired so we went to bed early, at 8 that night. It was nice and all but we are used to sleeping then waking up early and changing his diaper and feeding him then going to sleep for another 2-3 hours. Since we went to playgroup we did not have time for that. So right now I am trying my hardest to keep my eyes open. He is awake of course, since he slept through playgroup which ended up lasting like 2 hours. So I was cranky after we went grocery shopping and trying to clean up some for the missionaries tonight. And of corse I start saying rediculas stuff and Drew and I start to argue! Honestly if I just would have stayed quiet nothing would have started. I am just cranky because I have not showered in days and the house, as always, is a mess and I have to get everything ready for tonight.
           On a happy note, Andrew is 2 months old today!